As summer is coming to its end, I can’t help but feel that it was a whirlwind of time quickly gone by. I feel like I am constantly playing catch up and my to do list keeps getting longer.
Our summer began with a birthday. Two years ago I gave birth to twin boys, tilting my world on its axis and warping time at an incredible pace. It is hard to believe we are celebrating two years with them on earth.
Able to Enjoy
Thankfully, this year was not as much of a blur as the first. Where the first year of our lives together was mostly about survival and problem solving, this past year has been about falling in love.
It is not that I didn’t love them when they were infants but I was so consumed with trying to get through each day and figure out what the hell I was doing. Year two has been so much easier, allowing me to sit back a bit more and watch them become who they are. It has been overwhelming and awe-inspiring in the most joyful way. It is a gift to watch a human being develop into a person who is joining our community more and more every day.
I still marvel at what they have accomplished in the span of 1 year. It is far more than basically everyone else I know. In 365 days they learned to walk, run, jump, ride their bikes and dance in a strange sort of gyrating fashion.
We went from “mama” & “owl” to word after word after word, them greatly absorbing more and more. I will never lose sight of the power of watching someone go from knowing nothing about language to fully speaking and understanding everything I say to them. They learned their colors and their letters. The moon and the sun. Every animal sound, including some I had to make up, because learning the basics was not enough.
They turned a year and soon had to let go of things that brought them such comfort. Gone were the pacifiers, the bottles and their diapers. They use the potty, which was no small feat. They trusted me and I trusted them and they let go of the safety of those things that brought them security and comfort and began walking into the “big kid” world with grace and trust.
They traveled across the country and back twice like well-traveled pros…well almost but who hasn’t really had some sort of meltdown on a plane. They greet each new experience with a genuine mix of excitement and nervousness but willing to try it all.
The human being is amazing to watch develop. It truly is something so powerful to watch a being go from zero to a walking and talking person, and these two are no exception.
Personalities Starting to Shine Through
Beyond all the motor and physical skills they have accomplished in 1 year it is who they are that has been the real gift. In a sense, they came into the world as one but it is quite clear they are their own person.
Kellan has no fear, he will climb a tree, run down a hill, jump into a pool in a heartbeat. Atlas seems to sense there is some danger to those things, however, once he has accomplished it he will keep going until he has mastered it. Atlas seems to enjoy problem solving, he likes to watch how something is done and then tries to master it on his own. Kellan is a more peripheral learner. I am always shocked when he does something because most of the time I have never even seen him attempt it.
Thankfully, they both have a sense of humor. Atlas likes to pretend to do things that are funny or make a funny face for a laugh. He likes to plan the joke. Kellan is naturally a goof ball. He is constantly putting on a show and yet, hasn’t a clue how funny he is. Atlas is truly agreeable where Kellan is sincerely dramatic. They are both gentle and sweet and follow directions shockingly well for 2 year olds.
I love what this past year has been and sometimes feel like my heart might burst when I watch these two little boys blissfully navigate their way through life.
Even now, in these few shorts months of summer, they have taken age 2 by storm. My admiration for them is building and building and I am realizing it will probably limitless. So as I try to hang on to each moment, I still can’t help be excited about seeing who they are now continue to grow into who they will be in the future.